It's one of those nights when the air feels almost stagnant. Not bitter, just unmoving, worn out- like a slightly damp table cloth as it hangs limply over the edges of the table to drape across your knees. It's still, but not lifeless. I can feel a faint humming energy about the night that reminds me it's alive.
A shocking breeze just floated in through my window, engulfing me completely; sending goosebumps rippling up my arms. Tonight is one of the coolest nights we've had in weeks, but you can only feel it when the wind blows. And yet... it's almost no even cool in temperature as much as in essence. I'd guess it's about 60, 65 degrees out. But the chills in my spine tell me it's more like 25, when the wind blows.
Oddly, that wind isn't bothering me. Ever time those chance breezes touch my sleepy skin they send electrifying waves through my body. Makes me think of dark water and moon-lit white water lilies. I suck in a sharp breath and my hair stands on end.
There is a lamp beside my bed with a cream shade. The golden, muted light reminds me of a candle and suddenly I'm back in the nineteenth century. The throbbing warmth of that lamp, steady and cozy is like an antidote to my nerves. In my mind I smell wood polish, unbleached paper, and camp fire. It's all leather chairs with metal tack-things all around the edges.
I feel more ready for bed now. My covers feel softer, kinder. The clock reads "11:20 pm". The crickets no longer sounds so shrill and cutting in their buzzing and chirping.
Tomorrow will be a good day. I know it. Because I have decided so already.
Good night.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
A gesture of absolute irrationalism.
alright. update time. now, what do i update?
ah! i'm in Missouri right now. Away form school for a couple of weeks. This is both a sad and glad thing. No more homework, etc. but not much of a social life either. I spend my days working at a computer all day, or picking veggies. No. I do other things. I watch movies. I read books. I help run errands. Really, so far it's not so bad. Well, except yesterday. My boss left for a couple of weeks without telling me he would be gone that long, and he didn't leave me enough worked to do to last that long. So I spend most of my time coming up with things to do. Some more constructive and productive than others. And example of one of the "others" would be cleaning out my e-mail inbox. Yeah. Fun! Especially for hours on end. So though the last couple of days I have had to leave work early anyway in order to accomidate transportation for my mom and a few work meetings she's had... I've left early. Earlier than she needed me to. Why? Well, two reasons. I don't exactly enjoy sitting around doing nothing for hours on end. Nor do I think it is honest to get paid for it. So there.
Aaaaaaahhh!!!
OKOKOK...
Um... what else. Oh! My sister-in-law is really showing now. Sometimes he (yes, it's a boy!) kicks her and you can see it on the surface, like a little earthquake. They (my bro and her) finally got their house and just started moving in. My sister got a job down in Kansas City. And another of my sisters and her husband are in Russia right now. She says they're looking at museums and historical things like Rembrant and Leonardo da Vinci origional art, and they even got to eat dinner on a boat called "the Flying Dutchman".
I don't know everything that is going on in everyone's life right now, but later this month we're having a little family get-together and that is really making me excited. We're going to have a little baby shower for my sister-in-law, and most-likely sort through all the stuff we've halled back from my grandma's house (among other things).
I'm reading a book called "Elantris" by Brandon Sanderson. It's pretty good. There are a few corney things in the writing, but it's fiction. They are never perfect. So other than being an extremely critical reader, i'm really enjoying it.
My hair is completely unpredictable. It behave copletely differently her than it does in Idaho. In Idaho it's just frizzy and feather light. Here it's flat and limp and lifeless (with a little fuzz). I need to get it cut again. For a couple reasons. A) I have a lock of hair that is too long for bangs, and too short to be pulled back. It just kinda... hangs. Or I try and trap it back with it's own personal bobby pin. It's really and awkward piece and it gets on my nerves. B) my hair has absolutely no body. When it's shorter and layered, it actually has, well, form. It's too short to really put up a fight. It isn't long enough to be obnoxiously stubborn and pigheaded about doing absolutely nothing I would appriciate. and C) I think that the was it was in January looked better on my. I admit, when I first got it cut at the hair place, I HATED it. I was so frusterated. But when it got to take back it's own personality, and I got to style it my own way, I really liked it. I liked it on me.
Ok, enough ranting for now I think. I am tired and I can't believe I just spent all this time doing a much needed update rambling. I need to go... get a life. Ok. I'll check back with y'all (tired, crooked grin) later.
Cheers
ah! i'm in Missouri right now. Away form school for a couple of weeks. This is both a sad and glad thing. No more homework, etc. but not much of a social life either. I spend my days working at a computer all day, or picking veggies. No. I do other things. I watch movies. I read books. I help run errands. Really, so far it's not so bad. Well, except yesterday. My boss left for a couple of weeks without telling me he would be gone that long, and he didn't leave me enough worked to do to last that long. So I spend most of my time coming up with things to do. Some more constructive and productive than others. And example of one of the "others" would be cleaning out my e-mail inbox. Yeah. Fun! Especially for hours on end. So though the last couple of days I have had to leave work early anyway in order to accomidate transportation for my mom and a few work meetings she's had... I've left early. Earlier than she needed me to. Why? Well, two reasons. I don't exactly enjoy sitting around doing nothing for hours on end. Nor do I think it is honest to get paid for it. So there.
Aaaaaaahhh!!!
OKOKOK...
Um... what else. Oh! My sister-in-law is really showing now. Sometimes he (yes, it's a boy!) kicks her and you can see it on the surface, like a little earthquake. They (my bro and her) finally got their house and just started moving in. My sister got a job down in Kansas City. And another of my sisters and her husband are in Russia right now. She says they're looking at museums and historical things like Rembrant and Leonardo da Vinci origional art, and they even got to eat dinner on a boat called "the Flying Dutchman".
I don't know everything that is going on in everyone's life right now, but later this month we're having a little family get-together and that is really making me excited. We're going to have a little baby shower for my sister-in-law, and most-likely sort through all the stuff we've halled back from my grandma's house (among other things).
I'm reading a book called "Elantris" by Brandon Sanderson. It's pretty good. There are a few corney things in the writing, but it's fiction. They are never perfect. So other than being an extremely critical reader, i'm really enjoying it.
My hair is completely unpredictable. It behave copletely differently her than it does in Idaho. In Idaho it's just frizzy and feather light. Here it's flat and limp and lifeless (with a little fuzz). I need to get it cut again. For a couple reasons. A) I have a lock of hair that is too long for bangs, and too short to be pulled back. It just kinda... hangs. Or I try and trap it back with it's own personal bobby pin. It's really and awkward piece and it gets on my nerves. B) my hair has absolutely no body. When it's shorter and layered, it actually has, well, form. It's too short to really put up a fight. It isn't long enough to be obnoxiously stubborn and pigheaded about doing absolutely nothing I would appriciate. and C) I think that the was it was in January looked better on my. I admit, when I first got it cut at the hair place, I HATED it. I was so frusterated. But when it got to take back it's own personality, and I got to style it my own way, I really liked it. I liked it on me.
Ok, enough ranting for now I think. I am tired and I can't believe I just spent all this time doing a much needed update rambling. I need to go... get a life. Ok. I'll check back with y'all (tired, crooked grin) later.
Cheers
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